Grace For Andre Sakharov
Still, I grieve, Lord, grieve for your choice of fruits: whether I should prune and pluck sweet apples
or scrub the blood from coats of newborn sheep;
demand both eyes and ears of slanderous sinners
or let them mute my words with your spittle;
praise your patriarchs who collected wives
or your disciples who deserted their children;
sing the birthing from violated wombs
or write poems for God’s dead African children
rejoice for wise whales that spit out Jonahs
or for leviathans that did not smell the Baptist’s flesh;
or grieve when you raised up shepherd, but not goatherd.
Another goatherd, Lord, is shepherding his herd
toward your walled-off pens. Unlike Milton,
what poet is pure enough to fashion him
wings like Satan's to rest in Adam's garden
or uncut hair like Samson's to harrow hell
and shake the mountain from Christ's sepulcher?
so that a graceless goatherd will father,
like Abraham, who loosed Sarah; and mother,
like Rebekah, who clothed Jacob with sheepskin;
and create, like Peter, a song for the cock.
And like the woman wed to adultery
become a softer stone to be raised up.